SAHM

A few days ago, I told my boss at Pure Concept that I would not be returning to work.  David and I decided that I would stay at home with Isaac.  I had every intention of going back.  In fact, I didn't think that I would take the full maternity leave.  But everything changed when he was born.  I feel like my heart grew bigger.  Isaac's birth changed my perspective on so many things.  I make sacrifices that I never imagined, with more ease than I ever imagined.  When I think of Isaac in the Bible, I think of how he got on the altar as a sacrifice to God.  With my Isaac, I feel as though it is me on the altar.  I feel challenged to die to my selfishness and vain conceit.  In certain ways, it seems scary but I can already tell that there is so much that God is offering to me.  He is making me more like him.  He is letting me witness this little person's whole life.  He has made me a mother.  I am being reshaped and redefined.  He is showing me more of who He is through Isaac.  The other day I was looking at Isaac and I realized I love him... not because of what he's done for me or because of what a great baby he is, I love him because He is mine.  I finally see why Jesus loves us in spite of flaws, sins, space and time.  He loves us so much simply because we are HIS.  

Isaiah 43:1

But now, this is what the Lord says-

he who created you, O Jacob

he who formed you, O Isreal

"Fear not, for I have redeemed you;

I have summoned you by name; you are mine.